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Showing posts with label brain drain. Show all posts

Friday, March 13, 2015

i'm never speaking up again...just one more thing...



i'm never speaking up again...

just one more thing...

why does that crack me up?

the ability to laugh, hard, at the most random thoughts has been my saving grace, lately.

thank you Father.

without a doubt, every little glimmer of Goodness comes from You. 

now...

if i could conquer this give Love in the face of no Real Love thingy...

i'd be off to the races!

if only...

this song has been in my head a lot in the last few days. 

though not sung from my point of view, really. 

more of a mixture of how i feel sometimes, at certain parts.   it is definitely how someone else should be feeling Right now.  though i doubt they will.   in all likelihood their position=

it's all Eve!! 

it's that woman!!! 

i wear my heart on my sleeve!!!

never mind gentleman rules, home training, respect for boundaries, discretion, etc.

i can only own what i own. 

despite folk being quick to try to hang all their ish on me. 

'cause i am "strong"...

does any body else feel like "oh, no!" when someone calls them this?

i do.

experience informs my Belief that whoever says it,  is about to try to weigh me down with a whole bunch of junk that i don't want, need, nor own.

then if vehemently rejected...

"attitude" convos ensue.

anything outside of nods and smiles in the face of the utter madness = "bitter"...

hence the resolve to never speak up again.

just dumb, mute, blank stare + blinking.

yep.  that's the plan. 

surely that can't be mistaken as condescending, patronizing, wicked heart, or any other label folk have attempted to slap on this week alone.

speaking up finds me in trouble...

nonstop.

"it's not what you say, it is how you say it."

not speaking of any one particular soul.  be clear.  many have made a point of saying this to me or where i can hear...

pure uncut never goes over well it seems. 

folk demand a grip of sugar, ish and polietics.

never mind these same ones come...

hard.  

but then i am "strong"...

see?

lol.  

no time to go on and on. 

the song:




speaking up will get you deserted...

with the quickness.

Love! 

Trust!

understood + all Good.

now that the random brain drain is done.  self therapy.

aah...

you know, i've been told to shut everything down.

thought about it + started to do it, too.

then decided, on my terms, would be when it made my list of things to do.

Truth:  i write for my life + sanity- what's left anyways:)

if in the process another soul is Blessed...

then all the pressing and stress is worth it. 

yes, stress, is a by-product of non stop failed tests. 

i could quote some Scripture that states otherwise, but then i already covered the fact that i am failing + getting much wrong.

that said, i turn my attention to the only thing in the world that gives me Peace. 

the only thing in the world that feeds my soul. 

the only thing in the world that encourages me to be me + free.   while the world that doesn't even know me tries to dictate to me, how to be me.

His Word.

it seems no matter what i am facing...

it has already been faced + written about.

on those days when i feel more tested, pressed and stressed than Blessed- His Word is my Strength + how i keep on. 

so, i will be practicing just holding silence. 

that i may truly walk as righteous, heart of Yah, King David-whom i Love:)

before my ever present accusers line up to slap me with "hypocrite!" labels...

please know that i know;  i fail miserably time and again with verse 1 of the following KJV Psalm:

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UNIVERSAL LAW

KJV Psalm 39:1-13 

1   I SAID, I will take heed to my ways, that I sin not with my tongue:  I will keep my mouth with a bridle, while the wicked is before me.  

2   I was dumb with silence, I held my peace, even from good; and my sorrow was stirred.

3   My heart was hot within me, while I was musing the fire burned then spake I with my tongue,

4   Sovereign, make me to know mine end, and the measure of my days, what it is; that I may know how frail I am.

5   Behold, thou hast made my days as an handbreadth; and mine age is as nothing before thee:  verily every man at his best state is altogether vanity.  Selah.

6   Surely every man walketh in a vain shew:  surely they are disquieted in vain:  he heapeth up riches, and knoweth not who shall gather them.  

7   And now, Sovereign, what wait I for?  my hope is in thee.

8   Deliver me from all my transgressions:  make me not the reproach of the foolish.

9   I was dumb, I opened not my mouth; because thou didst it.  

10 Remove thy stroke away from me:  I am consumed by the blow of thine hand.

11 When thou with rebukes dost correct man for iniquity, thou makest his beauty to consume away like a moth:  surely every man is vanity.  Selah.

12 Hear my prayer, O Sovereign, and give ear unto my cry; hold not thy peace at my tears:  for I am a stranger with thee, and a sojourner, as all my fathers were.

13 O spare me, that I may recover strength, before I go hence, and be no more. 


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at the end of the day...

come what may...

it is He, alone, i seek to please. 

it is my soul's prayer that all souls will know that this is what time it is, for Real, as we head on into...



ONE YAH~ ONE MESSIAH~ ONE WORLD


  

Sunday, September 14, 2014

brake/break the system...


started writing this in the wee hours of the morning on september 14th.  struggled to get it out, before i got sleepy.  ran into a bit of writer's block before i hit save and decided to stop.

electing to come back to it when anointing + thoughts were fluid. 

started writing this before i got an external message to shut it up. 

now let me see...

threats/orders/warnings to silence me.  do they phase me?

nope.

wait...

still no.

so let me continue my wee hours of the morning flow.  this time with the benefit of rest.  fresh.  full press. 

let's go!   

decided to come from over @ FN and blog at my house...rather than in his comment section.

lol.

i am sure there are more than a few souls over there that are happy 'bout my decision:) 

clearly, there is a message He has put on my heart. 

Truth be told, it has been there for a minute.  just wasn't sure how to share/spit it.  so since it has to be Right when i write...

i waited. 

been pacing lately.   so i know it is time to go to it.

first stop- random confession:

during the work week, i am much less driven. 

my nature is laid back, with a touch of uber sober mindedness + a big dollop of high strung:)  but there is something about Sabbath...



let me tell ya.  suddenly on Sabbath- which is Saturday for me- i am ready to get.to.it.

in my mind. 

it is a concentrated effort to knock that off.  oftentimes i don't get up at all in an effort to cease with: 

disobedience. 
doing too much. 
+ a grip of other stuff.

the same stuff that has been tripping up Blessed Blacks for the longest time...

sins of the father...  this trips US all up.  all nations, really.  was addressing this in part over at FN's earlier.

not to mention it doesn't help very much that other disobedient, doing too much folk encourage me to be disobedient and do too much.  lol.

grind. 

even on Saturday aka Sabbath, they say.

nah.  not so much...

i'm with Him/His Word.  to the best of my ability, ALL day. 




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UNIVERSAL LAW

KJV Exodus 20: 8-11 

8  Remember the sabbath day, to keep it set apart.

9  Six days shalt thou labour, and do all thy work:

10  But the seventh day is the sabbath of the Sovereign thy Almighty:  in it thou shalt not do any work, thou, nor thy son, nor thy daughter, thy manservant, or thy maidservant, nor thy cattle, nor thy stranger that is within thy gates:

11  For in six days the Sovereign made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that in them is, and rested the seventh day:  wherefore the Sovereign blessed the sabbath day, and hallowed it.

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heads up:

this post is rather random.  that is what i mean by brain drain, really.   it is to release the clutter that gets me stuck.

okey doke.  since i got that explanation in the hopes of Understanding out of the way...

let's go here for a minute:



not sure who upset the powers that be..

but it seems that this couple has been picked to be made an example/spectacle of publicly.  if a beautiful family must be destroyed in the process- oh well. 

why did i know of this long before the non-stop loop showing Janay's less than stellar day? 

you know, i think if she had a little less melanin, the powers that be would not keep showing her in such a way.  dress up, exposed, being dragged...literally.  it is almost like an unseen force is determined to do a psych op on Black folk.  determined to have Black men + women at each others' throats.

wayward males + the Black feminists don't help matters.  the wayward males i leave to menfolk to address.  it's the Black feminists that i speak to now.  they are not helping... 

at all.

so let me get this straight.

womenfolk want to act like men...

but not really, though?

what part of keep your hands to yourself are some grown womenfolk missing?

don't folk know it is not good to be the aggressor?  lose.  then shout about being a woman?  what part of the game is that?  this wasn't a woman + a strange man.  this was a woman and her man, to whom she is supposed to be submitted + respect.  been with that man for longer than a minute so on some level she must've known just how sideways her disrespectful actions would take things.       

it is a Good day of Favor that find folk pulling a Solange in an elevator with no reciprocal whacks back.   Janay did not have that type of day.  charge it to the game + know it is best for all parties to keep their hands to themselves.  old hollyweird slapping menfolk = a fake bad joke.  womenfolk do not get a pass at a time when wayward womenfolk are quite vocal about the desire to be treated as men.

talking smack should be done outside of striking distance.

:) 

if whacking folk- which i do not advocate for any gender...doing so with plenty of space to run/exit scene of the crime = what's Good. 

come on now.

Janay, i don't minimize your suffering, my sister.  i can empathize and know that it must not feel Good to have this episode on a solid loop, daily, world wide.  this is your life.  not just a news story.  my heart broke for you and your family as this all resurfaced with greater hype.  the fact that you seek to charge it to the game + squash it is not lost on me.

the fact that what the "victim" in the whole scenario wishes to dismiss, but it is not= the greater point for me.

the Black feminists that are determined to behave like the led astray, wayward daughters of Edom act like they missed the respect your man + keep your hands to yourself memo... while they screech about how "oppressive" patriarchy is.  when in fact, when done Right, women, families + society benefit the most from patriarchy. 

so here they go...with standard i am woman hear me roar, talking points.  like they didn't see the ones selling that heavily manipulated madness, got over it, got married + went and grabbed a seat somewhere.  lol.  the daughters of Edom selling that madness to the daughters of Sion, took as many eligible Black men with 'em as they could before they went and had said seat. 

look. 

see.

lol!+ smh.  see a fool, bump their head.  as Khadija has so wisely, back in the day, said.

cut.it.out.already Black women.  please.  we have ALWAYS been treated like men.  why folk trying to remix this ish?  what did folk think Sojourner Truth meant?  did folk think she was talking for her health?

and no.  i am not saying folk seek to be treated as property, hitting women is justified, blah blah blah.  when leveraged properly womenfolk hold all the power.  it is only diminished + children and society suffer immensely when womenfolk decide they want to act like men.

let me say this as it relates to domestic violence for those that live to misunderstand:  from my younger with less wisdom days, i wear a permanent scar on my face.  could've removed it, but it is my reminder.  my war scar if you will:)  i wasn't being the aggressor, whacking folk though.  just made less than wise choices in Love.  as i tried to teach myself what Love was all about.  all is well + forgiven at this point. so, all Good.  nevertheless, it is with experience that i say:

if fisticuffs is on your relationship menu in general-when you have had your last beating, that day, you will call it A day. 

+ move far away.  with solid plans to not ever physically double back, jack. 

until that day comes for each soul going through the most, there is not much anyone else can say. 

folk have got to get to a place where they have had enough.   get to that place where there just isn't enough fear, love nor stuff to make them put up with another day of the madness.  

it is my prayer that you have a family to go home to Janay and all other souls caught in such a snare.  if/when you do decide you must leave.  a family that will Love and support you + your baby...while you re-build. 

switching gears...

call me "crazy" or whatever, but whenever something like this happens; i want to know what else these bad boys that run the show, for now, are up to?  what else is it that they don't want US to pay attention to? 

folk gotta know they own the media + the opinions of those that broadcast what the masses' opinions should be.  i mean, they literally rehashed this domestic spat caught on tape in our surveillance-at-all times society.  that's the bigger issue for me.  where is folks' privacy?  nevertheless, the powers that be then preoccupied folks' minds with it.  so what is it that we should really be paying attention to?  'cause minding folk's personal business just 'cause there are cameras everywhere is not it.

that question + hmmm...'cause that question is one of those things that will make you go hmmm + look Real closely...

brought me to this:








folk that pay attention have been forecasting this event for longer than a minute. 

when one adds a Scripture frame to it all, as i am in the habit of doing at this point, it becomes:

whoa! 

end times. 

woe!

end times. 

watch the signs!

end times.

alert!

seems rather dramatic, huh?

but when we consider that the enemy to our souls wishes that we will be so distracted that we miss the signs + listen to all voices but His Voice.  so focused are so many on mammon + the noise...

not sure how to sound the alarm, without being accused of bringing drama.

folk will break the system.  it is apart of the wicked men that run things, for now, plan.

most importantly, Yah Almighty will brake the system.  that's what's written.   when i read His Word/Promise, the image below best captures how it all resonates with me:

      + i thought she a wooly haired, Blessed Black beauty;)  so i had to share the image. 

i feel like the image, really.

the enemy to our souls is on a soul snatch.  he is defeated, a liar, yet most subtil + quite skilled at his craft.

i.see.you.

coming for humanity.  wanting to pit US against each other.  keep each other at the next one's throat.  like all humanity is not all in the same boat.

i.see.you.

'cause He showed me.

i.see.you.

speaking of what He showed me:

  i saw. 

RIP.  may your daughter know Peace...

quickly.

in Messiah's Name, i pray.

a respectful nod that you would not call back your words nor call them a joke.  not sure that i agree with your sentiments.  though i do believe folk have a right to voice 'em.  there's a price to pay for such boldness.  had you been my friend, i would have suggested you hold off on all doctor visit plans.  they been taking folk out with patsy puppet doctors for longer than a minute.

shout out to Eazy E, MJ and Bob Marley...just to name a few.  

the enemy to our souls stays pacing to and fro- seeking whom he may deceive + devour.

trying his defeated, level best to be like Most High...

applying his wicked, perverted twist. 

failing miserably in Truth, which is plain to see for those of US that know it is Him/His Word we should look to.

defeated, yet seeking to steal faith, hope, salvation, His people's birthright + souls.

folk must know that when Yah Almighty breaks the system, there will be no re-booting it.   what is written is all unfolding, whether people know this...

or not. 

it is written that His People perish for lack of Knowledge.  He is not a man that He should lie.  this is why i Love and trust Him/His Word with all that i AM.  despite all the distractions i see...i Believe Him/His Word + Promise...

He will brake the wicked system and restore His order...as it is written.



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UNIVERSAL LAW:

Enoch 

93.9- ...an apostate generation will arise.  And many will be its deeds- but all its deeds will be apostasy.

93.10- And at its end, the Chosen Righteous, from the Eternal Plant of Righteousness, will be chosen, to whom will be given sevenfold teaching, concerning his whole creation.  

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seems like a Good place to share a definition...

apostate- n.  1. a person who forsakes his religion, cause, party, etc.

"neutral" folk might want to take into account what is written regarding the lukewarm.  there is also in Revelation the very clear heads up that His shall overcome by their testimony...

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UNIVERSAL LAW:  

Enoch 

91.7- And when iniquity, and sin, and blasphemy, and wrong, and all kinds of evil deeds increase, and when apostasy, wickedness, and uncleanness increase, a great punishment will come from Heaven upon all these.  And the Set Apart Sovereign will come in anger, and in wrath, to execute judgment on Earth.

91.8- In those days wrongdoing will be cut off at its roots, and the roots of iniquity, together with deceit, will be destroyed from under Heaven.

91.9- And all the idols of the nation will be given up, their towers will be burnt in fire, and they will remove them from the whole Earth.  And they will be thrown down into the Judgment of Fire, and will be destroyed in anger, and the severe judgement that is forever.

91.10- And the righteous will rise from sleep, and wisdom will rise, and will be given to them.  

91.11- And after this the roots of iniquity will be cut off and the sword will destroy the sinners.  The blasphemers will be cut off; in every place blasphemy will be destroyed by the sword.

91.19- And now listen, my children, walk in the paths of righteousness and do not walk in the paths of wrongdoing, for all those who walk in the path of iniquity will be destroyed forever.

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there is a sort underway...

the sheep and the goats.  in the Mighty Name of Messiah i pray that  all souls will act like we know.  

as we head on into...


ONE YAH~ ONE MESSIAH~ ONE WORLD

 

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

early a.m. brain drain...


early a.m. brain drain...

yesterday was a beautiful exhausting, both spiritually/physically, type of day;)

met a beautiful sound asleep soul.  quite the educated brother.  so educated in fact that with firm conviction he explained to me that there was no proof of Messiah's existence.

like...He never existed.

ever.

on the face of the whole earth.

the cold reality that not only has the enemy changed Messiah's Name + painted Him white...they have re-mixed the "Knowledge" to erase Him altogether.  it was hard to pretend otherwise yesterday.  there was proof of this crafty counsel, all up in my face.

;(

telling me...like it was Bible, what his professor told him.

then hit every new school lick.  spouting stuff like:

" marriage = institution designed to oppress women + children."
"just because we can't explain something, does not mean that it is the work of Yah."
"only people confuse things with talk of a Yah."

straight faced + serious as you please.

q:  what does a woman say to a man saying such things?

 a:  my, you sure are educated...then give that sleeping soul some UNIVERSAL LAW.

stat.

;)

Blessed Black bold with it.  with Love from my soul + can you dig? dap (fist bump for the white folk;) at the end... 

bless him Father.  compel him to you...that he might walk according to your Purpose for his life, in Messiah's Name;)

much Love to the brother from compton + his professor.  who i can't wait to reach out and say hello to...

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random, though related:

this has been on my mind for a minute.  ever aware of the need for sensitivity...i have been unsure how to approach the topic.  kindda like talking to my sisters about weight concerns.

bw tend to get real sick of hearing what all everybody else think about US + our present much manipulated human condition/images.  all the many different facets covered, though most things bottom line to the perpetuation of dehumanizing racist stereotypes.

i AM a bottom line type of person.

that said, as i drain my brain of the misc thoughts...i AM just going to say what's on my mind.

i mean no harm nor ill will.  it is something that needs to be looked at.  seriously.  with a sober mind.  i think one can see the minds of folks in the physical, in many ways, when they know what to look for...

since a pic = thousand words.  let me discuss topic with pics.  brain drain long, hard + with few words;)

wig hats everywhere!!! 

               LOL...                                does anyone else want the wig hat madness to stop?

i really want to issue cease + desist orders, at this point in the game. 

however, it is not my place. of course, those with medical, hair, scalp conditions  don't factor into the equation.  

i understand folks have the freedom of choice as it relates to hairstyles.  what is messing me up are the number of bw among US that hate themselves or wouldn't feel beautiful without the additions.  like there is a psychological lock, of sorts.   like, they would not feel beautiful nor acceptable without all the additions.  this is at the core of what bothers me.  it bothers me when folks don't love themselves.  these tend to be the same souls that are viciously jealous of those that dare to love themselves;(     

free your mind...the rest will follow...

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another pic worth a thousand words:

 Photographer Dasha Zhukova Sits on a Black Woman Chair for Buro 247 Interview

http://fashionbombdaily.com/2014/01/20/russian-socialite-garage-magazine-editor-in-chief-dasha-zhukova-sits-black-woman-chair-buro-247-interview/

what "sisterhood"?

the mothers of Psalm 83 folk don't ever give it a rest.

when i call it out...even the most subtle forms...folks can get as mad as they please.

Peggy Noland's Outrageous Oprah Dress

whenever the sons of BW do anything...folks want to bring the BW into it.

yet...for some reason no one ever quite ties ww into their sons/daughters' antics.  the ww- she can't be held responsible.  ever.  despite being the first teachers of the white nation.  their sons torment the planet + all people on the planet...throughout history.  just because. 

look.

see.

please know without apology, on an Abraham, i AM my father's daughter flow:

with Boldness... i will rip down all idols.

how folks "feel" about it = personal business.  between the Yah of their understanding + them. 

those that would feed + benefit greatly from the racist hatred aimed at  Blessed Black women, would do well to get to know the Truth:



any questions?

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it is my sincere heart prayer that more will grow to know Him/His Word, as we head on into...


ONE YAH~ ONE MESSIAH~ ONE WORLD