Saturday, July 5, 2008
i laugh when i see how my steps are ordered of the Lord. i feel humbled to know that all things that come to pass are with divine purpose.
recently, i felt, what seemed, at the time, like my lowest low since my journey began. my sisters, please know, NOTHING frees you quicker or more completely than forgiveness.
i have to sit with that statement for a moment...
...now, i rejoice! seeing clearly with my spiritual/mind's eye that with which the enemy meant to destroy me, will be turned and used for my good. did i tell how much i love the Lord? with ALL my heart, i do.
my heart is full of praise right now. ok. now i am switching gears...
...i don't like math. i am more artistic, creative, and love words more than numbers. i could easily eliminate all numbers with the exception of 3 and 7 without any guilt. why 3 and 7? they are my favorite numbers:-)
interestingly enough, one of my newest endeavors means that i must crunch a lot of numbers, daily. funny huh?
it also means that i get to see, up close and personal, a LOT of angry white men that want this country to return to being a free republic. return? HUH?
i addressed this same topic awhile back in Dear Dr. King . what is interesting to me is the behavior of men, most men...
...ALL colors. they insist on being "in charge" while blaming everything but themselves when things go sideways. most men engage in this practice i notice.
the country is in ruins and any suggestion that white men have only themselves to thank for it is...white man bashing! yes, despite steadfastly shutting everyone else out of the governing process and in quite a few instances even the human circle, one must never suggest white men and white folks, in general, stop the "traditional" lying and look at themselves. interesting.
despite knowing the "rules", i have decided to honor and respect my ancestors and tell the truth. i have been doing it all week. so much so that a white man had the gall to tell me that he was "sick" of hearing about slavery and the injustices in this country. this man is so entitled that he rebuked me while maintaining that the laws that govern this country are based on the bible. (so much for loving your brother/sister as you would yourself, i guess?) he went further to presume to teach me about the constitution and the bill of rights.
being who i am, i informed him that i am sick of hearing about what white men (washington, jefferson, clinton, bush, etc.) think and listening to them preach about "freedom", especially since they were/are enslaving and brutalizing other human beings while preaching their "freedom" sermons. the hypocrisy is unGodly and more than i can stomach quietly.
he indicated that the constitution and bill of rights were just as relevant today and that is why he continued to mention them. when i suggested that slavery and the after effects were as well, and suggested that the curses earned by the sins of the fathers would be visited upon the children to the second and third generation, hence cointelpro's baby, the patriot act and other constitutional/bill of rights violations...crickets...tumble weeds...crickets...ANGER!
i for one appreciate the equal opportunity born under the patriot act. now, EVERYONE gets to be angry! maybe now folks will understand that it is impossible not to feel anger in the face of injustice? will God's people now unite, stand together as one, and resist the devil as he unleashes lies, division, and suffering?
i would go into greater detail, however, there is no need to reinvent the wheel. i was reading over at Professor Tracey's and came across a post that sums it up for me. check out THE 4TH OF JULY over at BEAUTIFUL, ALSO, ARE THE SOULS OF MY BLACK SISTERS. i could not have said it better. this post made me cry, it is so beautifully written, sad, and true.
without apology, i love my people. i want us to be healed, whole, and basking in the many blessings that God has bestowed upon us.
i love my country. i want us to be healed and in harmony with humanity. i want us to dismantle the wickedness that is at the core of the foundation of this country, this will require that we have the courage to get real.
r.i.p. Laura Nelson. she is pictured above. she was brutally raped and lynched while protecting her teenage son who was also lynched. i believe her son was accused of stealing, only to be found "not guilty" after the fact.
i will never forget nor will i stand silently and be told to "get over it". over 100 million of my ancestors perished in this "free" nation as a result of such brutal inhumanity. as long as i have breath i will continue to honor my ancestors and tell the truth. this has NOT EVER been a free nation, under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.
i do this in the interest of...
...SELF LOVE~ SELF ACCEPTANCE~ SELF RESPECT