1 Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered.
2 Blessed is the man unto whom the Sovereign imputeth not iniquity, and in whose spirit there is no guile.
3 When I kept silence, my bones waxed old through my roaring all the day long.
4 For day and night thy hand was heavy upon me: my moisture is turned into the drought of summer. Selah.
5 I acknowledged my sin unto thee, and mine iniquity have I not hid. I said, I will confess my transgressions unto the Sovereign; and thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin. Selah.
6 For this shall every one that is set apart unto thee in a time when thou mayest be found: surely in the floods of great waters they shall not come nigh unto him.
7 Thou art my hiding place; thou shalt preserve me from trouble; thou shalt compass me about with songs of deliverance. Selah.
8 I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go. I will guide thee with mine eye.
9 Be ye not as the horse, or as the mule, which have no understanding: whose mouth must be held in with bit and bridle, lest they come near unto thee.
10 Many sorrows shall be to the wicked: but he that trusteth in the Sovereign, mercy shall compass him about.
11 Be glad in the Sovereign, and rejoice, ye righteous: and shout for joy, all ye that are upright in heart.
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Love's in need of Love...
today.
in a major way...His People/my people need One Love.
the ability to laugh, hard, at the most random thoughts has been my saving grace, lately.
thank you Father.
without a doubt, every little glimmer of Goodness comes from You.
now...
if i could conquer this give Love in the face of no Real Love thingy...
i'd be off to the races!
if only...
this song has been in my head a lot in the last few days.
though not sung from my point of view, really.
more of a mixture of how i feel sometimes, at certain parts. it is definitely how someone else should be feeling Right now. though i doubt they will. in all likelihood their position=
it's all Eve!!
it's that woman!!!
i wear my heart on my sleeve!!!
never mind gentleman rules, home training, respect for boundaries, discretion, etc.
i can only own what i own.
despite folk being quick to try to hang all their ish on me.
'cause i am "strong"...
does any body else feel like "oh, no!" when someone calls them this?
i do.
experience informs my Belief that whoever says it, is about to try to weigh me down with a whole bunch of junk that i don't want, need, nor own.
then if vehemently rejected...
"attitude" convos ensue.
anything outside of nods and smiles in the face of the utter madness = "bitter"...
hence the resolve to never speak up again.
just dumb, mute, blank stare + blinking.
yep. that's the plan.
surely that can't be mistaken as condescending, patronizing, wicked heart, or any other label folk have attempted to slap on this week alone.
speaking up finds me in trouble...
nonstop.
"it's not what you say, it is how you say it."
not speaking of any one particular soul. be clear. many have made a point of saying this to me or where i can hear...
pure uncut never goes over well it seems.
folk demand a grip of sugar, ish and polietics.
never mind these same ones come...
hard.
but then i am "strong"...
see?
lol.
no time to go on and on.
the song:
speaking up will get you deserted...
with the quickness.
Love!
Trust!
understood + all Good.
now that the random brain drain is done. self therapy.
aah...
you know, i've been told to shut everything down.
thought about it + started to do it, too.
then decided, on my terms, would be when it made my list of things to do.
Truth: i write for my life + sanity- what's left anyways:)
if in the process another soul is Blessed...
then all the pressing and stress is worth it.
yes, stress, is a by-product of non stop failed tests.
i could quote some Scripture that states otherwise, but then i already covered the fact that i am failing + getting much wrong.
that said, i turn my attention to the only thing in the world that gives me Peace.
the only thing in the world that feeds my soul.
the only thing in the world that encourages me to be me + free. while the world that doesn't even know me tries to dictate to me, how to be me.
His Word.
it seems no matter what i am facing...
it has already been faced + written about.
on those days when i feel more tested, pressed and stressed than Blessed- His Word is my Strength + how i keep on.
so, i will be practicing just holding silence.
that i may truly walk as righteous, heart of Yah, King David-whom i Love:)
before my ever present accusers line up to slap me with "hypocrite!" labels...
please know that i know; i fail miserably time and again with verse 1 of the following KJV Psalm:
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UNIVERSAL LAW
KJV Psalm 39:1-13
1 I SAID, I will take heed to my ways, that I sin not with my tongue: I will keep my mouth with a bridle, while the wicked is before me.
2 I was dumb with silence, I held my peace, even from good; and my sorrow was stirred.
3 My heart was hot within me, while I was musing the fire burned then spake I with my tongue,
4 Sovereign, make me to know mine end, and the measure of my days, what it is; that I may know how frail I am.
5 Behold, thou hast made my days as an handbreadth; and mine age is as nothing before thee: verily every man at his best state is altogether vanity. Selah.
6 Surely every man walketh in a vain shew: surely they are disquieted in vain: he heapeth up riches, and knoweth not who shall gather them.
7 And now, Sovereign, what wait I for? my hope is in thee.
8 Deliver me from all my transgressions: make me not the reproach of the foolish.
9 I was dumb, I opened not my mouth; because thou didst it.
10 Remove thy stroke away from me: I am consumed by the blow of thine hand.
11 When thou with rebukes dost correct man for iniquity, thou makest his beauty to consume away like a moth: surely every man is vanity. Selah.
12 Hear my prayer, O Sovereign, and give ear unto my cry; hold not thy peace at my tears: for I am a stranger with thee, and a sojourner, as all my fathers were.
13 O spare me, that I may recover strength, before I go hence, and be no more.
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at the end of the day...
come what may...
it is He, alone, i seek to please.
it is my soul's prayer that all souls will know that this is what time it is, for Real, as we head on into...
i accept the sanctity of humanity. i accept wholeheartedly the truth that injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere. my mission is to effect change peacefully with Love. with focused purpose, i seek to do my part to improve the human condition on this planet. we are ONE people really, in Truth. without apology, i, will lift my voice and work passionately for the upliftment of black women and girls in this country and around the world; for it is abundantly clear that if we are to have value---we must bestow it upon ourselves. writing is one of my gifts and i am convinced that the power of words is mightier than the sword. join me as i exercise my Almighty Sovereign given powerful gift. if you leave inspired to claim and/or exercise your powerful gifts, it will mean success. glory to Sovereign Almighty Creator of all.
