Thursday, June 26, 2014

folk keep talking 'bout "attitude"...

folk keep talking 'bout "attitude"...

may i just say for the record:

this practice gets under my skin + negatively impacts my "attitude".  so if you think you are being helpful, factor that fun fact in.  please. 

the fact these folk don't get totally verbally annihilated with the quickness = proof He is Real.  to be conscience is to be in constant state of rage.  it is even written of in Scriptures.  so, yes, i have an "attitude."  i feel a whole lot of ways 'bout a whole lot of things.  


KJV Deuteronomy 28:32-34 

32   Thy sons and thy daughters shall be given unto another people, and thine eyes shall look, and fail with longing for them all the day long:  and there shall be no might in thine hand.

33   The fruit of thy land, all thy labours, shall a nation which thou knowest not eat up; and thou shalt be only oppressed and crushed alway:

34   So that thou shalt be mad for the sight of thine eyes which thou shalt see. 



Love is Patient.

Love is Kind.

though sometimes it takes a lot of inner work to get there;)

if folk find it hard to Believe anything else, they would do well to Believe that.
some of us pay attention and are all too clear that the image of the american Black woman is being degraded, denigrated and erased. Khadija put it.

with white and other women's children, standing boldly in our place, while our stories are told.  then there is the foreign Black invasion.  lol.  no hate.  just sayin'.

world-wide there are vicious, racist, hateful depictions or nothing.  those of us that encounter folk from other places can testify to the liberties some will try to take 'cause they saw a music video, movie, news story or two.
some of us get the message, that is sent loud + clear that no matter what happens to Black women and girls...

we made it up or imagined it.

we couldn't be raped in the 1600s and exactly nothing has changed.

while we are raped, battered, abducted, sacrificed and abandoned on the daily- with nary a peep.   

stand boldly talking to me 'bout "attitude" if you want to.  i pray it is a Good day, for other folks' sake.  no excuse.  just the Truth...i am a work in progress.  

it is my prayer that Messiah even will pray for me and us all, that we will all have Good days, in these last days. 

sadly, none perpetuate these "attitude" lies more than those, one would think would be our natural providers, protectors and allies- Black men.  not all Black men but in large numbers.  there is no Black man hatred here either.  it is a simple observation.

these jokers, not all bm but in large numbers, are all too clear about the evils with which they deal.  talk to 'em 'bout what is happening to the daughters of the nation and watch how hard it is for them to see much less call things as they are.

i get it.

if folk acknowledged the horrors...they'd have to address the perps.  that runs contrary to the Black male = needs much protection, provision, are endangered, societal victim narrative.  or as Khadija would say- folk can't talk Real, 'cause then they'd have to name names.


for the record, let me now say this:

keep talking to me 'bout "attitude" and know that i could not care less 'bout your little point of view.

whether you are in Black skin or pale as Vail, Colorado.   lol.  'cause yes, the pale ones, both genders, pile on, in their never ending quest to be this demonic new school cool.  that somehow got attached to Blackness despite the pale folk bringing the demonic, hate Blessed Black ratchedness...for a profit, of course.  white folk ruined hip hop + rap.  now horn of baphomet throwing Eminem is hailed as the best rapper eva.  when i first heard him spit, he was dissing...

Black women.


i remember.

then Black male Black woman haters, hitters and dissers put him on.  think Dee Barnes beating Dr. Dre. 

this fact in no way excuses the Black minstrels that just can't wait to show out for their little bit- in the big picture- $mammon.  these jokers draped in animal print, beta sex slave programmed, homo thug with it- calling Blessed Black women every vile name their deranged brains can frame.  those traitors...

full stop.

if He were not changing me...

i could express that with a no holds barred, rock socks + knock snot OUT...

wayward, bold souls that would dare to fix their little mouths to discuss "at-ti-tude" in the face of such flagrant fouls.  like they can't hear nor see all this racist hatred and misogyny that breeds an atmosphere of open hostility aimed squarely at Blessed Black women and girls.

folk discuss sex trafficking of women and little girls then promptly go 'round the world to chant 'bout bring back our girls.


we got this type of madness going down on the regular in the USA.

we got crickets on the topic in words + policies coming from the white they can't be bothered nor see. 

what happens to Black american women and girls is never really hashtag trendy or of great concern though.  that type of concern has no Real crossover appeal.

peep this excerpt that did nothing for my "attitude":

"Tony Muhammad, Nation of Islam Western Region Student Minister, encouraged advocates and police to go to the root of the pimping problem. The problem is spiritual and mental, he said during his address at the Nu Alpha Delta Multicultural Sorority sponsored forum."

“Don’t just deal with the effects of what’s going on in the poor communities because you’re looking at the fruit that’s coming from a rotten tree,” he said.

“Where did trafficking start? Pimping didn’t start with the gangs that’s doing it. Pimping started with the slave ship. You can’t just deal with branches,” Mr. Muhammad said.

blame it on slavery and keep all little opinions 'bout the "attitudes" of Black women and girls to yourselves.  if i could i would get you the most uncomfortable of shoes and invite you to walk a mile.  when one's image is devalued and denigrated, it impacts how they are treated.  folk even mentioned Malcolm X being a pimp.  folk need to turn right around and acknowledge that Malcolm X's righteous love of the daughters of the Blessed Black nation is also what got him taken out.  seems higher ups in the NOI were on a "pimping" tour with young Black girls as well.  while hollering loooong + hard 'bout the wickedness of white men.

and the last time i checked...

Black women and girls were not exempt from the horrors of slavery + frankly, dealt with horrific, demonic misbehavior coming from all sides.  just like now...

  if the plain as day, all in folks' face pattern, evident in movies, music, print etc plays all the way out...

i am sure Thandie Newton, Halle Berry, Zoe Saldana or somebody else that represents the new Black american woman, will play Sojourner Truth in the movie.

serious stank eye.

taking nothing from these actresses and splendid artists.  simply speaking on the disrespect hurled at Blessed Black women.  foreign born Blacks in stories about US serve to displace/erase US as well.  enough of all that, really.

the new Black= one Black parent maximum.  two = too much Black/invisible.  especially in girls/women.  folk with chocolate daughters will still enforce this unspoken rule or perpetuate the "preference"...

i didn't make it this way.  pretending it isn't so helps in no way.  i have even heard it said that pale skin = feminine.  when asked how these souls explain white men dominating all the other color men on the planet...


i am going with pale skin = masculine.  final answer.

Khadija, who also has/had a blog called Sojourner's Passport;) at her other blog helped me better process a great deal of what i see.  the duality + hidden in plain sight aspect of things.  it's wild.  i have checked out of the movies and such.  even transformers has turned into this evil thing.  it used to be cars, trucks and such.  the dark side is not so hidden so much anymore.     

over at her other blog here:

during the course of the dialogue, she said something that really hit a nerve with me.  it turned things up a notch or two, really...

first, i have to laugh 'bout her mentioning FN, in the comments in the link above.  lol.  reading his post prompted the hysterical pic in my war not against the flesh piece.  that was my attempt to make it make sense- which of course, it still didn't make any sense;(  lol.  also the fact that she mentioned Diahann Carroll made me laugh.  so much confirmation for what is unfolding before me.  there is a truly hateful, hates Black women, even as he uses them negro that could not wait to tell me how he disrespected Ms Carroll.  all proud with it.  somehow managing to tell his shameful story while trying to convince me that he stands up to white folk.  girl fighting, bass voiced negroes make me sick.  quick.  i pray daily not to go in on this soul as i deal with him.  though he is on the hide out after showing all the way out.  but that's a whole other blog post.    

i also want to say that speaking the Truth, of the impact of these sad facts on Blessed Blacks, is not a hate fest on white and other women's children.  it isn't about color.  it is all about KJV Galatians 3:28-29.  yet we live in a society that is based on color.  lying, pretending we can't see and refusing to address what is won't make things better.

Khadija's comment that hit a nerve: 

"The situation IS chilling. The anti-BW hate speech and propaganda put out by BM c/rappers and many BM celebrities is essentially Radio Rwanda. Very Bad Things happen to categories of people who’ve been denigrated and dehumanized in the public view."


which leads back to Sojourner Truth, who asked a question.

folk politely ignored the question and refuse to answer.  to this very day...

then some white women lost their whole minds...

deciding it was high time for women to be treated as men- as they set about feverishly destroying their menfolk.

like Black american women were ever not treated as men + eating by the sweat of our brow, even with husbands.  which the last time i checked was the curse for men.  menfolk are to toil and eat by the sweat of their brow.  womenfolk are to be in submission to their man.  the Black women hustling even with husbands is not a dig at Blessed Black men either.   we know the economic sanctions in this nation with which most struggle. 

when one cues the Black men in dresses, makeup, high heels- a regular spectacle these days- suffice it to say, the lines get Real blurred.   

Black men, in large numbers, buy in 'cause if their women must act + be treated as men...

it makes the sin they Love + stay in their close personal friend.  most will simply say they can't find a job, point the finger at white/pale men and line up the hard working harems.  the pale ones sitting on top, 'cause white(er) skin pays dividends even with Black men- they tend not to have to work so hard.  Black menfolk with lots of stuff can't.wait. to hand it all over to white(er) women. 

don't get mad.  i am not seeking to offend.  just have reached a place in my journey where i refuse to hold it in.

then the Righteous menfolk can only seem to find their speaking voice bass, when they standing in a Black woman's face...

yabbering on and on 'bout "bad attitudes"and a mess of other stuff that distracts 'em from the fact that they need to get with their wayward brethren and bass + blast the Truth.  quick, fast + in a hurry.

ignore Sojourner Truth's question if ya'll want to.  i AM bound to ask it again and again though.  

ain't i a woman, too?  

we can all hit the ignore button, 'cause that's precisely what i do when folk need to get  on Out of Here! talking to me 'bout "attitude"...

in this hostile, hateful, demonic, racist, soul wounding environment that just. won't. stop. 

on any level...

i know the score.  frankly, feel like i been here before.  but when i think of how it affects our wooley haired, blessed Black little girls that folk are openly preying on like they got the Right...

i promise i could Light up the darkness registering my displeasure with the madness i see all around me.  while the protectors turned predators are protected from accountability and e'erthang else.  all blamed neatly on slavery.  while the daughters of the nation are treated like public property back on the auction block.  collateral damage.  there are so many Black women and girls, what's a grip of broken ones anyways?  then these same ones will turn right around and say Black women aren't fit for marriage.   + a host of other viciousness designed to malign and side line...

"at-ti-tude" my...


take them to the Yah of your Understanding.

those that feel so inclined, as they sit in for Messiah as judge, go ahead... 

judge me.



KJV Luke 5:31-32 

31   And Messiah answering said unto them, They that are whole need not a physician; but they that are sick.

32  I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.


and that will be fine, 'cause 'til the day i die...


since He created me,  i choose to Believe that it is alright to be who He created me to be.

without asking permission. 

i am a sinner.

saved not by my deeds but His Grace. 

so please...

don't keep testing me.  

back up off me with the "at-ti-tude" comments.  the whole lot of you.  for Pete's and e'erbody else sake.

+ thank you for helping me to not increase my sins.


folk don't even try to 'cause shame nor lay blame with grown folk running 'round talking 'bout they "pimpin'" this, that and the other.   not picking on Jay Z either.  i pray that none will be lost.  there are many many others that come up with new disrespect and denigration daily.  calling themselves pimps.  i don't blame all hip hop and rap, because i realize what is mainstream fell off looooong ago.  shortly after rap/hip hop became whitened.  

don't get too cute nor brand new with the disrespect though.   

some disrespect is reserved for and heaped on the heads of a certain segment of womanhood.  when it "crosses over" the other shoe drops Real quick, lickety split.  then folk do the lost jobs/ apology tour.  White, Black and all colors in between.

"MSNBC correspondent David Shuster’s use of the phrase “pimped out” in referring to former first daughter Chelsea Clinton’s modest political activism has led to his apologizing, his suspension by the network, a major blog and commentator furor."

but one example...



KJV Leviticus 19:29 -Do not prostitute thy daughter, to cause her to be a whore; lest the land fall to whoredom and the land become full of wickedness.


what if?

menfolk and the female mule types that won't.stop trying to protect menfolk from all accountability acted like they knew all women and girls were someone's daughter?

think folk would glamorize "pimping"?  understanding brutality and oppression goes with "pimping" like peanut butter goes with jelly?

think folk would brand/tattoo little girls with such wickedness as this?    


would we get back to cream evoking this type of image?

though lactose intolerant + my stomach hurt at the thought of ingesting the stuff in that cup...this pic grabbed my heart.  what a beautiful little chocolate drop;)

i still hope and work daily to do my part in this humanity project.

if it were not for the babies...

but since the babies need US.   i will suck it up.  commit myself to try harder to resist the strong desire to cuss + fuss when folk dare to speak to me 'bout an "at-ti-tude" like they have no.clue injustice will tick a soul off.

instead, i pray to shake the frustration off and press on, as we head on into...


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